Getting Out of My Own Way

Becoming more engaged with the here and now

That's what so many of my issues comes down to: just getting in my own way. Shooting for growth, but just spinning my wheels instead.

I'm putting way too much pressure on myself and expecting way too much. Even in the throws of telling myself to step back and just go with the flow, I'm still demanding that of myself.

Ultimately, I'm just not being present. I'm constantly looking into the future, trying to plan and anticipate and enact changes. Or I'm getting overwhelmed by looking back at what has or hasn't worked in the past.

But I don't and can't live in either of those places. The only place I can live is in the present.

So right now I'm going to shut my computer, put my phone off to the side, lay back, and watch The Simpsons.